Reality of Friendship

So over the course of the last 6 months per say, I have really been analyzing friendships and relationships with people and I've just come to realize a lot of interesting points.

What is the point of friends? To me, it is having someone outside of my family/marriage that I can turn to and vent about things that I can't talk to my family/husband about. Someone that I can get a break from my everyday life with to go do something fun. And someone to confide in about any and everything whether I have told other people or not. It is someone that whenever you are having a problem you can turn to, or whenever you are bored you can be bored with them. 

I am the kind of person that will go out of my way to please others before I worry about my own needs. It is a good feeling to do nice things for people and see the gratitude on their face. And the only thing I ask is for the other person to be a good friend.

As far as my own personal life (family life), everything is great. But when it comes to friendships, it's kind of lacking. I have only had two really good friends over the last few years, just due to the fact that most people our age are single with no kids. But it feels as though I have lost both of those people in some aspects.

Person A, has basically chosen a path that is in the opposite direction of our friendship. "A" has decide to make relations with a person that has a lot of issues and wants nothing to do with Jay and I. So we haven't seen "A" for almost two months, and it really makes me question the validity of our friendship to begin with. Pardon the language, but you aren't supposed to shit on the people that have always been there for you no matter what. Because the day you get shit on, you will be the only one wiping your own ass.

Person B, is just young and naive. "B" is single with no kids, loves the bars, and loves to drink and drive and I have HUGE issues with that. I love to drink once and a while, but getting behind the wheel is just something I am completely against. I may not have saved myself for marriage, but I made the choice not to sleep around before I got married, because I knew the day that I were to get married, I would not want to be ashamed of my past. 

Anyway, I almost feel like I shouldn't have written this blog. But sometimes I need a good venting. And lately, the friends that I always thought would be there, haven't been and it is really disappointing. I am just grateful that I have a husband who loves me and two kids that always entertain me. I love them very much, they are all I need.

Until next time!